It was because I always yelled at him when we were young. Kept scolding him and one fateful day i slapped him! That was the ultimatum. From then on, he didn't look at me nor talked to me. He never shared anything with me. I didn't realise until one day i happened to flip through his essay. He wrote that he has a sister who did not care. His sister had became very fierce and even slapped him and there seems like no one else who could ever understand him. From his passage, it seems that he felt very lonely in this world. Despite all efforts to revive our good relationship, somehow we could no longer be as close as ever. Sad really, but i always tell myself, no matter what happens, i promise i will help to the max whenever he needs my assistance. That's the only way i can redeem from my sin for not being a good sister during childhood.
Truly hope that all siblings could love and care for one another forever, least regret for life, like me....
That's one of my life's regrets... what's yours?? Food for thought and repentance, perhaps.
Thats heavy stuff dajie, however it would seem incongruous to an only child why such unpleasantries transpired in the first place. As they say its better late than never...to make amendments and more so to realise the root of the problem :)
ReplyDeleteI really hope gege will let his guard down and open his doors some day. Don't stop trying ya it will work out im sure dajie!
In retrospect at least something positive came to fruition, i believe you will duly ensure none of your loved ones will tread the same path right?
I will certainly draw lessons from this and apply it to hmm....our kids perhaps?
Anyway my litany of regrets is endless....but one that irks me quite abit is that i should have studied my ass off when i was in school instead of play play play hah (note: ensure marcus and bryan read this). With every choice, we win some and we lose some. Regret is just us coming to terms with our losses...just my 2 cents :)
Marc, thanks for sharing. :)
ReplyDeleteI won't give up. He's after all my dear brother. How about consoling myself with an excuse.. well, maybe he's too introvert, that's why. Anyway, i am contented as long as my loved ones are happy and healthy.
Cheers!! Dajie
ya lo da jie, the thing you should do now is to be there for him to make it up lo. i am sure gege can feel how much you care for him actually, just like how we feel it. try to talk to him more? (:
ReplyDeletehmmm, one thing i regret? so far no, touch wood. and hope i wont anytime too soon. or maybe i tend to forget unhappiness fast, and only remember the good. or maybe i really feel that everything just happen for a good reason. keke.
my first day of class was great. at least i'm learning you see. now gotta mug for my last two exams for nafa, and ub's algebra and trigonometry is starting to drive me mad liow. ok, but i'm happily trying to solve the questions. loves! see all of ya soon k (:
jia.
*hugs* da jie! in fact I really dunno what to say also...read this too many a time but just do not know what to say...
ReplyDeleteBut, I am sure gege knows your love. I bet all know he is a man of few words. Even if he can feel your love and all, he is not the kind who will say it out loud. He will just treasure it deep within! I am sure he loves all of us as much as we love him but he just do not wish to admit to it! Let it be ba and what we can do on our part is to constantly call him, inform him of our gathering and just hope that he will appear. As one age, one will see things in a different light and things will sure work out someday!
If only gege have an email account, send this to him to read! :p hmm or just sms him this blog for him to read when he is free?? just wondering! What's all your viewpoint?
Haiyo... dun send to him, so malu. :P afterall, i know la, he is man of few words. just felt sorry for what i had done last time and most importantly wanted to share with all who have siblings.. asking them to cherish their brother/sister, and not to say too harsh words to them, in case it hurts them real hard.
ReplyDeleteDajie
thanks alot sis for the reminder...
ReplyDeleteCan't deny human tend to take things for granted after some times...
We are nice and polite to strangers, all the more we should be nice and polite to those we love...and with many life experiences, one will tend to treasure what they have more and age is definitely one major factor which i feel la...
SO, to all my love ones, I LOVE U ALL LOTS!! And should there be any times where my words hurts, please FORGIVE ME, for I do not mean it!!
You all are too precious to me for me to even have the slightest thought of hurting you!!
Hugs and kisses!! =D